Thoughts for the day

Thursday, November 4, 2010



1) You're in deep shit if you have a pneumonia caused by staphylococcus aureus. A knowledge on how heroin is taken could possibly lead you to the diagnosis!

2) A drug addict taught me that heroin can be used in 4 ways
I) Injecting it
II)Smoking it
III)Snorting it through the nose
IV)Inhaling it-Chase the dragon
Smoking and chasing is safer as compared to the rest as it reduces the risk of OD.

3) Commonest cynotic congenital heart disease is still Eisenmenger's syndrome

4)You need 2 medical students, 2 house officers, one ward sister and another staff nurse to insert a branulla in an emotionally unstable patient.

5) The chicken and egg story in a 28 y.o hypertensive patient. Hypertension causes the CKD or the CKD causes the hypertension? A thorough search for secondary causes of hypertension warranted?

6) You need extreme patience to be an infectious disease physician. Day in day out, you deal with resistant bugs, patients who defaulted their treatment and among others.

7) Met a few patients with haematological disorders. APLS, thalassemia and AIHA. Heamatology is quite a fascinating field I think.

8) Observed a bone marrow aspiration and trephine biopsy. The doctor that obtained the consent must be very persuasive!

9) A pericardial rub sounds like a systolic murmur

10) Saw Dr Liu today in the ward. He asked: Why are you still here. You like this place so much? What's wrong with you? I winked at him. He tapped on my shoulder and said: Better come back and serve.

Reflections..

Sunday, October 31, 2010

Another year has zoomed past and we are almost at the end of third year medical training. Time flies as they say. The end of another year is always the time when one looks back and reviews our achievements, what we did well, what we did not do so well and then look forward to set goals to rectify them.

Year 3 has been uneventful to me so far in the sense that life practically revolves around texts and patients. With the end of year exam approaching soon, I am starting to spend more time hitting the books instead of roaming around the wards acting like a house officer. Now don’t get me wrong, it’s not that I am better or comparable to them, it’s just the method of learning that I have adopted since the beginning of the year. Osler once said: To study the phenomenon of disease without books is to sail an uncharted sea, while to study books without patients is not to go to sea at all.

A few things that I’ve learnt to appreciate over 12 months being posted in different departments:

Respect patients

All students should ask yourself, “Who taught me medicine?”

“Prof A is really good, he taught me this and that. He even printed notes for us!” one of my colleagues answered. At the end of the year, most students will be going around, knocking the doors of their lecturers to thank them for making them a better doctor. But how many actually pondered whether these individuals really taught us the art of medicine? Did they develop heart failure to teach us what an elevated JVP looks like? Did they suffer from cyanotic congenital heart disease just to show us clubbing of the fingers?

Then who taught us medicine? Obviously the patients.

Patient came in with wheezing to show us the signs of asthma.

Patient came in with a myocardial infarct taught us what are the ECG changes that you could pick up in an acute coronary syndrome. Without these patients we would never have learnt. Yet there are students who are capable of performing examination without even obtaining consent just to satisfy their hunger for good physical signs. They come, they strip, they auscultate and they leave.

Our parents taught us to always respect our teachers. That’s the reason why we should have utmost respect for our patients-Our great teachers. And not treating them like dummies for you to practise on.

To wish

Make it a habit to wish the patients and their family members when you clerk them. You’ll be surprised to see how cooperative and pleasant the patients become when you wish them. Always be polite to patients irrespective of their socioeconomic status, education level, ethnicity, language, culture and religion. I’ve learnt tremendously from drug abusers, inmates, people from the lower socioeconomic background throughout the year. They never fail to make me realise that I am indeed so lucky and blessed to be living in such a comfortable life and to pursue what I like in life.

"Healing occurs when you let another human being know that his suffering and fears matter to you"-Anonymous

Choose your friends by their character. Choose your socks by their colour. Choosing your socks by their character makes no sense and choosing your friends by their colour is unthinkable-Anonymous

Be less intimidating

Always stand or sit at the same level with patients when you clerk a new patient. If you are standing and patients are lying down, it can be very intimidating for them. Pull up a chair and sit beside the bed if necessary. Try to calm them down especially during bedside teaching sessions. I learnt to routinely shake/hold their hands while introducing them to my colleagues and teacher before each session starts. Trust me, this will ease their nervousness tremendously. Thank them before you leave, not because they have been cooperative but for the fact that they have imparted some knowledge in you.

Refer to them by their names, and not “cases”. They are not experimental subjects and don’t you think it’s rather dehumanizing to be referred as such?

Duties

Never do things half heartedly. What you do now will definitely reflect who you are going to be next time. Clerking without examination is unacceptable and it just shows that you are not interested in learning. It sucks to be the group leader in the sense that you are directly responsible for the group’s learning progress. Inevitably you will meet people who clerk a patient 15 minutes before bedside and expect the tutor to show them the clinical signs and to finish up all the remnants. Excuses like “The patient was eating when I wanted to examine” or “ Patient was not in bed when I wanted to examine” are commonly given as they fail to step up to their responsibilities. Be responsible when you carry out your duties. If you don’t know or haven’t done it, just admit it and remember to do it properly next time. You must be responsible towards yourself and your colleagues.

However, I’ve learnt to accept and adapt. Confucius once said: If I am walking with two other men, each of them will serve as my teacher. I will pick out the good points of the one and imitate them, and the bad points of the other and correct them in myself.

And finally Attitude

“Attitude , not aptitude determines altitude”. It is the attitude in learning that makes all the difference. Although you can argue that why take things so seriously? You'll get the same degree anyway, since you still call the person who ended up last in medical school -Doctor. It is up to us to decide whether or not to be a 99% doctor or a 50% doctor.

Spot Diagnosis?

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

A few of the patients that I've seen over the week..



The mad house

Friday, October 15, 2010

Just some random thoughts for the day

1) The medical ward in hospital Sultanah Aminah is indeed a mad house. You'll have patients screaming, yelling, crying even swearing from time to time. It's stressful to work in such environment, the workload is unreasonable with tonnes of blood to take, lab investigations to review, cannulae to be inserted. Worse still when you have a 10 year old dengue patient who is afraid of needle being admitted...tds FBC..argh...

2) I entered the ward when the sun has not yet risen and I went back home when the day has gone dark. Extremely exhausted to the extend that I lost my appetite for dinner.

3)I poked an elderly man 3 times, one for an ABG, inserted a branula and withdrew blood and lastly a blood CNS under strict aseptic technique. I'm sorry.

4)I love the ECG machine in D2, it is printed in A4 size, no more long messy ECG strips laying around.

5)The hospital is so poor that they ran out of reagents for TROP T, creatinine and serum calcium. This is a tertiary referral center and I believe the patients should receive tertiary specialist care.

6)My fasting blood sugar after morning round is about 3.2 mmol/L. This is the value after going around looking at 40 patients without taking a single sip of water or breakfast.

7)Lung cancer and PTB is so prevalent in this region.

8)Ascultated my first carotid bruit, and realized that clinical examination is way more superior as compared to sophisticated imaging investigations.

9)Every complaint from the patient is genuine.

10) And in medicine, what ever that happens after 5 actually makes you better.

Clinic Cafe

Monday, September 13, 2010

If you are feeling sick and not well, you need to visit a clinic to get some medication. How about if you are feeling hungry and thirsty, can you visit a clinic? The answer is YES-Clinic Cafe.

Cool huh? Overall, it would be quite a nice place to chill out, decent atmosphere, service was good. However, food was just average.

Yellow discolouration

Saturday, August 21, 2010

The pathologist reported

Sections show fragments of gastric mucosa with sheets and nests and occasional glands of malignant epithelial cells invading the stroma. The tumour cells are pleomorphic, have increased N/C ratio, vesiculer nuclei and eosinophilic cytoplasm. Abundant mitotic figures are seen.

Impression: Adenocarcinoma, poorly differentiated, infiltrating
This is an elderly woman in her seventies, who was warded 4 months ago with the chief compliant of yellow discoloration of her eyes and skin. I remember this particular patient vividly as she gave the medical team a hard time figuring out what is wrong with her.

When she was admitted, she was grossly jaundice. It wouldn't be difficult to spot her in a sea of people. The semester one student nurses were pretty curious with her presentation and some of them asked me what's wrong with her.

It's pretty simple when you have a patient presenting to you with jaundice which is actually yellow discolouration of the mucous membrane and skin due to excessive bilirubin deposition. In our Malaysian setting, an underlying liver pathology/gall stone disease is usually the culprit.

However, upon detailed history taking, we couldn't elicit anything related to an underlying chronic liver disease. No weight loss, appetite was fine either. Crepitations at both lung bases were picked up and the legs were minimally edematous as well. She has no risk factors of viral hepatitis infection but of course a full jaundice workup was done including hepatitis serology.

An ultrasound was subsequently ordered to look for evidence of liver cirrhosis that could explain her presentation. I scratched my head when the report came back, everything was fine other than the enlarged lymph nodes compressing the porta hepatis. Liver was homogenous in terms of echogenicity, no evidence of cirrhosis.

To cut the long story short, a full battery of investigations were performed and we finally hit the jackpot when an OGDS found a fungating mass at the body of the stomach. A biopsy was taken and the result as mentioned above. Bile flow was obstructed due to external compression by the enlarged lymph nodes. Prognosis was not good. Management was then to relieve the obstruction by stenting, the rest are just palliative.

I followed her up for almost two and a half weeks, trying to understand the disease progression. Every afternoon before lunch time, she'll definitely ask me whether I've had my lunch. And if I say no or later, she will start lecturing me on how I should take care of my own health, and how eating late is bad for health. She was a very cheerful lady and even the student nurses enjoyed chit-chatting with her. They call her "po po"(grandma). After the stent was put in, she was allowed to be discharged

Today while I was doing my groceries in Giant, I bumped into her daughter. We started talking and I asked about po po. "She passed away 2 weeks ago, in peace, without any pain" her daughter said. " Thanks for asking doc" she added.

I can't remember her exact full name. But other than that, I can remember every single thing she told me before she passed away. I spent quite some time telling stories, listening to stories, laughing with a woman who would not survive the year.

I do hope she's doing fine up there, surrounded by lovely people!

A good cry

Saturday, August 7, 2010


She looked outside the window and started crying. Her tears welled up in her eyes, rolled down her chicks and then subsequently she broke into a full out sob. She tried to suppress the urge to cry, wiping away the tears with her tudung.


I excused myself from the team of doctors doing round, went over and gave her a gentle tap at her back and said:" I'm sorry Mak Cik, is there anything else we could do for you?". I knew she had no choice, your mind overrides any effort to suppress the need to cry, I told her it's fine to let it all out, because i know when you hold your tears back, you are only amplifying the emotions your body is trying to release through crying. She took a deep breath and said: Thanks for the pineapple cake young doc, and asked me how I became a doctor at such young age.

Her husband is a 65 year old malay gentleman with a known history of type 2 diabetes mellitus under the follow up of one of the district clinic. He presented with the chief complaint of dysphagia(difficulty swallowing) that was progressively getting worse. It started off with solid food especially bolus of rice and subsequently followed by fluid. Prior to admission this time, he could only tolerate 3 spoons of whatever food before regurgitating. Vomitus was free from billous substances and the fact that he could pin point the level of obstruction above the nipple line strongly suggest a mechanical obstruction at the distal oesophagus. With the significant weight loss of 20kgs in one month with anorexia, any sound reasonable competent doctor will give the the provisional diagnosis of a malignant space occupying lesion anywhere along the oesophagus causing the above symptoms. And yes, the was the provisional diagnosis of adenocarcinoma of the lower oesophagus was agreed by the specialists and the rest of the MOs and HOs. The plan of management at that time was to get an urgent OGDS for diagnosis and probably a tissue biopsy of histopathological evaluation.

Looking at him, he was lying on his bed, propped up with the wife and a wheel chair beside him. He has not been ambulating well according to the wife, and probably it is due to his poor oral intake i said to myself. A quick glance at him reveals a man in his 60s, emanciated with temporal wasting looking quite pale probably with a haemoglobin level of 8 or 9. He's not in pain, comfortable under room air without any oxygen supplementation. Did a quick examination on him and found nail bed, conjunctival pallor, distended abdomen with positive fluid thrill and bilateral pedal edema up to the mid shin. From auscultation, there was reduced air entry bilaterally with bronchial breathing just above it suggesting some degree of pleural effusion. After palpating the abdomen quickly, I concluded that his physical findings were consistent with the provisional and probably there is liver metastasis to the liver causing a hypoproteinemic state.

When I went back to the ward after class that day, I was confused as the OGDS did not show any intraluminal obstruction, but instead 4 large oesophageal varices occupying more than 1/3 of the oesophageal lumen with red cherry spots indicating stigmata of recent hemorrhage. Something was not right, from the history itself, there was nothing to suggest an underlying liver disease. No previous history of jaundice, distension, tea coloured urine and pruritus. Stool was normal as well. I traced his liver function test and found myself even more confused with the LFT being relatively normal. Serum albumin was on the lowish side, serum bilirubin and the other liver enzymes were normal. Nothing at all that suggest a primary liver pathology. Coagulation profile was not prolonged as well. I doubted my skills in history taking at that point, did I make a mistake? But I am very sure that the patient's complaint upon admission was "Susah nak telan".

During the A.M round the next day, an abdominal ultrasound was done and serological investigations to detect Hep B/Hep C infection were dispatched. The report from the radiologist came back stunning all of us- a large heterogenous hypoechoic lesion over the left lobe of the liver suggesting hepatocellular carcinoma! The liver was mildly cirrhotic and there is no clear fat plane between the mass between the body of pancreas, suggesting local infiltration. This is not a good news at all, his wife asked me about the radiological report, I said I am not in a position to give any comments and the consultant will be a better person to talk to. To cut the long story short, a 3 phase liver CECT was done and subsequently found multicentric lesions over the liver with invasion into the main and right hepatic veins and distortion of the IVC. Everything make sense now, the portal hypertension was not due to cirrhosis of the liver, but instead thrombosis in the main hepatic veins with anatomical distortion of the IVC. Budd-Chiari syndrome.

I put the CT films down and rush to the patient, I asked for permission to examine him. By then, the abdomen is grossly distended with the umbilicus everted. Shifting dullness cannot be any more clear, even with such an amount of fluid in the abdomen, when I laid my hands over the epigastrium, I noted a firm mass with an irregular boarder, covering half of the epigastrium. HOW CAN I MISS THAT from the initial physical examination? I flipped open the case file and found out that it was missed by the HO who first examined him as well. This is a retrospective finding, nothing to be proud, but definitely something to be ashamed off. All my tutors were right, even the consultant was right, medicine is still an art that cannot be replaced even by the advent of sophisticated imaging technology.

She looked outside the window and started crying. I asked whether I could do more although I do know that as a student, I can do nothing. The wife and the family members decided to bring him back. There's nothing that can be done here in HSAJB for him, only palliative management. I spent some time talking about a few things that could possibly go wrong after discharge, asking him to come back if ever he finds himself passing black stool or experiencing any symptoms of anemia from UGIB. The ascites will only get worse, and I reminded him to come back for a peritoneal tap if he finds himself having difficulty breathing from all the fluids in his lungs and the restrictive effect imposed on the lungs by the large abdomen. I thanked both of them for all the teachings and bid goodbye.

HCC without the background of cirrhosis, alcohol binging and chronic hepatitis infections. Something different from the pathology that I've learnt previously. Looked up the patho textbook that night itself, and found that a variant of HCC can occur without cirrhosis/ hepatotrophic viral infection- Fibrolamelar carcinoma of the liver. I hope that the mass could be a benign one like an adenoma or focal nodular hyperplasia. But from the aggressiveness of the mass as reported, and the fact that is has infiltrated the major hepatic vessels and distorted the IVC, its unlikely that it is benign, a tissue biopsy is still mandatory for confirmation.

Too bad, I've lost all the notes that I've taken for this patient. Must have misplaced it. From the history, daily reviews and even investigations, all gone. Ahh, what a waste, but he taught me so much throughout his stay in the hospital that I can still remember that his serum bilirubin level-it was only 29.